Lost control!

Some hard feeling which cannot be describe.
Sometimes I am thinking, am I wrong?
Did I do anything which make my friends hate me?
Did I did something which that make people feel bad and I don't realise?
I always ask myself all these questions.
If I really did, I really hope someone could correct me in the first place.

I have been thinking for several times.
It is just coincident or there are really something happened and I don't realise?
Why I feel that I am always been left out.
Not to say 'left out'
but, I just don't know what to say.

In another piece of land in my brain thinking...
Why a bad person always can hide their bad things well and pretend like a good person in front of others?
Why all the good person are always been misunderstood by people?
Why those 'dogs' can always very good in acting and creating drama?
But the very main point is, why the hell they always can get people who believe in them?
What I hate the most is people who with doubled face.
I don't respect this kind of people.
You are LOW STANDARD!

If you are really telling the truth, why you are so scared to tell out loud in front of people?
You are just adding salt and sugar into the real story.
When you get people who trusted you, you use them as your defend.
How sucks you are!
You have to GAIN your respect from people, NOT ASK for it.
Don't always say that people don't respect you,
You ask for it but you never gain it,
Let me tell you why, because you don't deserve it.
When getting more and more people disrespect you, you should understand why.
You should take a mirror and look into it, not always pointing the wrong at others!

What make me look down on you is.
When you can't get what you want,
You will start to use the people around you to archive your target.
You even destroy others' friendship by telling the wrong things and make them believe you.
You go around and talk bad about others.
But in another way you tell others that people are telling something bad about you behind you.
I believe in Karma.
What goes around come around.
I believe God is always Fair.

I am sick about you, so what you want you just carry on.
I am tired. I am tired of your acting,
I am tired of everything of you.
That's why I choose to leave...
I chose to let go what I care so much for these 6 years.
I used up all my energy, mentally, physically but not for myself, for all the members I care.
Who knows that?
I am sad, I am disappointed. but who cares?
Everyone will just thought that I leave because I lazy.
But who knows the story? NO ONE!

Even though I hate you so much, but...
Once ago, you are really good, do you know?
I am serious!
Your power, ranking and money make you lost your direction.
Don't let the devil inside you destroy you,
I know I don't have the right to say
I am sorry. even though you are older but you are not always right.
because you are human too...

by,
ENG JEE